New Year's Resolution? No, Promise!

Howdy partners! Thank you so very much for your support and concern. Things are back to normal and peace has been restored in the house! My father left about a day ago. Tonight, in a few hours, I will be going to Watch Night Service. For those of you who don't know what that is (which I am sure you do), it is a Black tradition, a Black Church tradition as a matter of fact. Don't get me wrong other ethnic churches do it as well. I am going to research Watch Night Service's origins and get back to you. ha. Anyhow, WE all get together pray, a lot of prayer, sing, sing a lot of songs, dance, a lot of praising, and preach, a whole, whole lot of preachn'! In some cases the congregation is allowed to reflect upon the year that is about to pass and decide how they can better their personal situations and personal service for the Lord in the new and upcoming year. Some even give testimonies. I already know what I have to do spiritually. A person who is always in constant evaluation of themselves, their lives, and their surroundings and is honest with themselves, always knows what they have to do to improve. The key is to actually DO IT! I don't have negative influences, so I do not have to worry about "scratching people off of any list." Personally, I want to challenge myself spiritually and see if I can fast for extended periods of time. It goes without saying that I want to become a prayer warrior and immerse myself in Bible stories. So many other religions know their purpose for believing what they believe and practicing what they practice like the back of their hand (am I right), or better than that. For it is too late, it is time for me to honestly, and thoroughly discover my true purpose for myself! What I realize though is that solutions like these always end up on people's list, and then at the end of a whole year they look back and discover they failed miserably at attempting to fulfill their New Year Resolution Desires and sustain them, simply because they did not have a written out plan. So, I need to write a specific goal, a specific plan and stick to it! I have not made New Year's Resolutions in years, however this year it is absolutely necessary. I am resolving...(haha) to loose 50+ pounds. Yes, I love myself and no, I am not insecure. However, I want to stay healthy (and become perhaps healthi-er/better shape), feel more energized, fit into my clothes better (which is always a good reason), and just be all around more healthy. Tino really believes that I cannot do it. He jokes. Though he doesn't know how much it hurts my feelings. I do not take it too personal though, because I know he is only joking. If someone so close to your heart has doubts about your abilities it hurts and can be down right damaging. However, you have all the more power and motivation to prove them WRONG! I cannot wait to see the priceless, Kodak moment, expression on his face when I tighten my arms, slim down my stomach...you get the point. I mean it this time. I have enjoying pigging out over the holiday and now it is cracking down time! The gym 4+ days a week. Cardio training. Interval training. I am doubling my gym time and cutting out sweet snacks. Portion control...here we go. Three months to a new body and a new spiritual walk. And scratch the resolution...This is a PROMISE! This won't be easy though. What are your New Year's Promises? Please tell me...SO WE CAN SUPPORT EACH OTHER! may it be write a book? Happier marriage? Get married? Clean the house? Get rid of a nasty habit?

Deck the Halls with Fouls

There is so much to tell you...I do not know where to begin, but I will try to keep it as short as I can. These past three days have been a roller coaster for me. The first two the family was down in Myrtle Beach, SC. It was so much fun! Tino and I walked the beach at night, jumped in the pool the next day (which was freezing cold), and played Dance Central on the XBox 360. I also met "The Jones(es)." Pastor Jones has sixteen kids, all of which came. They were all respectful and so well behaved. I got to know his older children that were close to my age. I still couldn't break through to my cousin. I shared a room with her. She would stare, but did not say a word. Her baby boy ZaNoah is so beautiful. My dad could not come because his probation is up in 60 days and they are not quite finished yet. I suppose that was a good thing. When we got home he was yelling and physically threatening my grandma. I was scared a little. He even revealed some of his feelings about me and I have done nothing to the man...I hardly know him. I have discovered that my father "loves me," but he does not like me. I remind him too much of his mother and I love that women so much. If I have ever seen an evil spirit I saw it in him last night. I was not starring @ him, but I could hear it in his voice, I could feel it in the air. Grandma had to call the police and dad left. I feel like everything he told me was a lie. He was saying that he wanted to stay celibate until he got married, yet he is running off to be with some woman in Georgia. Am I mad at him? No. We are all only human, we make mistakes, but I do not want/like/need to be around a confused, insecure, mad man when I am young, Black, and beautiful! lol but Seriously, before he got here it was peaceful and loving...now I have to hold my tongue in fear that I might offend him. Why am I sharing this with you...well 1)I told you I would be honest and share what is going on in my life during my college years, 2) I want to speak to situations that may be going on in your life. My advice to you, don't you EVER let someone threaten you and/or disrespect you, IF you have done nothing wrong. Even if you have, you do not have to tolerate someone yelling down your throat, and/or beating you up mentally, physically, or emotionally. I saw the devil last night. I really did. He is mad, because the Lord has a lot in store for me and my family. I am not scared and I will not stand for it. My, my how times change, yet stay the same. Here is my father a 40+ year old man who cannot let go of his anger to save his poor, confused life...not even enough to love me completely or to just live a peaceful life. Do not feel sorry for me...I am alright and as a matter of fact I am still happy. The one thing I have not learned yet it how to make a depressed person feel better. When I am in a room with one, I freeze up and go somewhere else, because as I have told you, I need to be around folks who love and laugh. It is not hard, you just have to learn to forgive people for the wrong they have done to you and move on. Life is too short and the world is too small. Till next time...

PLEASE TUNE IN TODAY...

Good Morning beautiful people! PLEASE DON'T FORGET TO TUNE IN TO THE REDSKINS GAME TODAY VS. THE MINNESOTA VIKINGS @ 1PM! I will be their HONORARY COIN TOSS OBSERVER. SEE YOU ON THE MEGATRON!

I just want to take this time to thank each and every one of you for supporting me, loving me, and putting up with my wild imagination, commentary, and semi-colons! haha I pray that you all have a Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, and/or Happy Holidays and a HAPPY NEW YEAR! We will be talking before the New Year though. We have to talk about this ridiculous New Jordan shoe release craze (Concord 11), and Republicans talking about our First Lady's backside (which is personally hilarious to me. If I were her, I would simply laugh it off and "roll it off my back like a duck." lol) Anyways LOVE YOU! Till next time...

Movie LIFE: Lights, Camera...ACTION!

"How are you beautiful babydoll?...well, I hope." That is how my dad would address all his letters he sent to me while he was still in prison. And I am asking you that same. I pray that your holiday season has been terrific and exciting, or just plain ol' relaxing! If not, there is something you are not doing right. Yesterday I spent the entire day with my BFF (Best Friend Forever) Ruth. If there was ever an unconditional love that was deeper than the roots of trees-that's the love I have for her. I associate her so much with Ruth in the Bible who chose to stay by Naomi's side despite that fact that her husband had died and they both had no money. Ruth is a faithful friend to me, just like Ruth was thousands of years ago. We are total opposites. Funny thing is my name is not Naomi. I still haven't figured out what "Yazzzmeeen" means. Perhaps, cute or funny. Everyone says it means flower, but that's "Jazmine." My name is actually a Muslim name, though I am a Christian. This whole affair is quite confusing. Next time I see my dad I will ask him why he named me such. I love my name though, don't get me wrong. Your name is all you have when there is nothing else. 

I do not know how I got caught up on names. I really wanted to ask you...have you ever, if even just for a day, pretended that you life was a movie? I do. I do all the time! Sometimes there are days that seem so happy and fun that it feels like I'm in a fairy tale. There are some days that are so unbelievably dull or sad that I feel like my life is a soap opera. It's fun. You should try it. Acting like you are in a different place, with a different name with a camera in your face. Sing a song, do a dance, exaggerate a little, laugh louder than you normally would, over enunciate your words. Seriously try it. My movie always has an omniscient narrator (ME OF COURSE) like the voice you are reading in my blogs. I think so so many things, and so so many things I have to keep to myself. So when I am out and about and I think aloud to myself (Ha), I feel like I am in a movie with that hovering voice you always here that guides you step by step into the plot of the story. Try it. If you already have, tell me about it. 

Time Flies When You're Having Fun!

    The days are just rolling by. It's has been such a joy to spend the holidays with my grandmother talking, laughing, eating and watching movies like we always used to do. What makes it even better is that this holiday break, I do not have to spend all day and night completing scholarship/college applications. I am just pure chillin; too much I'm afraid. As a result, I have had the amazing opportunity to leisure read once again. I am reading Pres. Obama's "The Audacity of Hope." He is an excellent writer, but there is so much government  lingo and it is hard to keep up at times. Anyways, I went to my Alma Mater today! That was fun! Got to see my former teachers. I have to say they are all truly committed to their jobs and love what they do. They prepared me (with long hours of homework and studying) for this cruise ride called college and I personally thank them for that.  Later this evening I watched a slave movie with grandma called "Night John." It is excellent. In short, it is about slaves learning to read and the danger/liberation that came out of it. You must see it. I purchased the Roots collection and the Roots New Generation, but I am afraid to watch it. I wonder if it will give me nightmares or scar my "innocent" view of the world and my Caucasian counterparts. I doubt it will, but I have talked to several people who could never finish the series because it was too intense for them.
    Saturday I will be the honorary coin toss observer for the Redskins game vs. The Vikings. This shall be very interesting! I'm excited nonetheless. Then on Sunday, Christmas, Tino and I will be traveling back to North Carolina to spend time with the fam there. They travel to Myrtle Beach every Christmas. This will be my first time visiting Myrtle Beach. One thing you must know I AM SWIMMING! I don't care what you say or how cold it is going to be. There is nothing like swimming and playing in ocean water. I've got my Vitamin C tablets so I don't get sick. haha. Other than that life is life. Enjoying each breathe and trying to make the most of my holiday. That's all you can do right? No sense in complaining; it won't change anything.
PS: If you have not noticed, I use a lot of semi-colons. In the English language this is unprofessional, disturbing, and downright against the law! However, that is the beauty of free writing. No one can tell you that you are wrong and you get to make up your own rules. Well, till next time you sweet people :)

That's What You Get, Yaz!

About to go to the hairdressers...thank goodness! It's been so very long since I have had the works! lol Then it's off to go see my friends from Summer Camp! I'm so excited. We have been through so much together. Anyways, I wanted to tell you a funny story to make you laugh. Ok. So I went to "Five Below" back in NC. If you are not familiar, it's a little trinket store where everything is under five dollars. And tell me why when I was there I purchased a pair of leggings...but these weren't just any leggings. They were the ones that said "One Size Fits All"....sure your right. I open a pair and they seem very stretchy. Days later I put them on..they fit nice, a little low on the hips. I put a nice, long, peach sweater over top with cute boots. Everything went well until I walked out the house! Oh boy, it was on...the leggings began sliding down my hind parts! I pulled them up so much my biceps began to burn (this is not an exaggeration yall). I was so embarrassed. If I got brave and decided not to pull them up at all, they would slide down like jeans on the the men you see on DC streets or New York. To make it worse Tino was along side me laughing! I mean crying laughing..I was too a little though. He was the one who initiated my buying of the things. NEVER AGAIN! lol And don't even ask me why I didnt go back and change because I cannot answer that. :) That's what I get for trying to be cute and trying to be skinny for a day! Haha I was really looking like a thug, unintentionally. NEVER AGAIN I SAY. [These manufacturers need to stop telling tales and tell the truth about the sizes of the material they make.] People act like big girls don't have to wear clothes or don't want to look nice for cheap! geesshhh

The Most Difficult Thing to Do...

Well, one thing is for sure...I am back in the city! I went to the dentist's office today via the metro bus and surely enough the bus began acting up so I had to get off before my stop. The familiar but not-so-pleasant smells greeted my nose just as soon as I walked out the front door. I can tell the difference in the air, now that I have been gone so long. I forgot how bold and brave the men in DC are. Clean cut or raggedy, don't ever underestimate the boldness of a D.C. man. lol But that's not what I wanted to talk to you about.
So before I left North Carolina. Pastor Tadd Granstaff at PineRidge Church (A very new. modern type of church) talked about Christmas as the season for giving, for-giving, FORGIVING. Get it? If not, you will in a moment. So during this season, whether we celebrate Hanukkah or Christmas, we always look for "the perfect gift" for him or her. Sometimes we buy gifts for others to cover up anger or guilt that has been eating us up for days, months, or even years. This is the season for giving, so in order to truly enjoy, forgive those who have hurt you. Give the gift of forgiveness. Once you forgive people for the hurtful things they have done to you, then you can move on with your life. However, after you forgive others, you need to do one of the most difficult things that anyone can do and that is acknowledge all the people you have hurt. It is so easy for us to point fingers and hold grudges against people who have hurt us, but what about those we have hurt? #foodforthought. "We tend to judge others by their actions and judge ourselves by our intentions." We can always make excuses for ourselves and for what we did. Something is wrong with this picture. You will be surprised at how anger/guilt free your life will be once you have forgiven ALL those who have wronged you! The bottom line is, we all make mistakes. Once we accept this fact, the easier life will become.

Introspection and College Reflection

Greetings and Salutations Lovelies! My first semester of college is finally complete as well as finals. I am writing to you on the train back to Washington, DC. This semester was honestly a breeze, aside from having to face my arch nemesis once again---MATH! STATISTICS to be specific. I made it through though at Elon with something special. Something that my Black High School failed to provide for me, not that it was their fault; a study group. The mindset of many of my peers back in high school was "Each for himself. Survival of the Fittest." No one wanted to see you doing better than them. In college though, it was a collaborative effort...we locked arms, leaned back, closed our eyes, and knew that someone would be there to catch us when we fell (or to prevent us from falling). My Statistics study group was my life line. We performed as if we were in a "trust building" exercise, you know the ones they always make you do in the middle of the woods? haha. I loved each and every one of them and we all honestly wanted to see each other do well and reach our highest individual potentials. I have learned a lot having lived independently for only a few months. Two things that still prove to be true about myself, which I already knew was 1)I am pretty self-motivated and 2) I have to be around people who make me laugh and those whom I can have honest, deep intellectual discussion with. I need to be surrounded by people who are smarter than me, more motivated than me, and have different perspectives. I am too far mentally to turn back to one-track mindedness.
My mentor from back home told me while things are still fresh in my mind to evaluate what went well and what I could have done better. Since I know I will not have time or want to do it over break, I might as well do it with you all now. So, what went well: 1) I got to know each of my professors intimately, 2) I utilized office hours and study groups, 3) I utilized the free services on campus such as the Writing Center, the Career Center, the Internship Office, the Busar's Office and the GYM! 4) I met a lot of new people, landed a job, and kept a planner (responsibly completed all the tasks I needed/wanted to complete. I think that covers about everything. I really don't regret anything even what's coming next.
Things that could have gone better/situations I could have handled better: 1) I need to learn how to manage my money much better. I need to learn how to buy based on my needs and rule out things that I can get at another time, for clearance after Christmas, and stuff I just don't need at all. For me to come from a middle classish setting, I am pretty high-maintenance. I like the small pleasures/indulgences of life like eyeliner and eyeshadow, sweet smelling perfume and lotion, colorful, warm socks, fancy hoistery and high heels and nice jackets. It is very hard to be on a strict budget when you like these things. 2) And most important, I think I really could have done a better job being a more supportive, open, and understanding roommate. We will leave that at that. LESSON LEARNED: I LOVE COLLEGE, LA UNIVERSIDAD! College is your chance to do, say, experience all the things you dreamed--literally, because after you pay your tuition everything is free/up for grabs! You already bought the cow, so you have a life-time guarantee of milk! haha. People automatically treat you better when you are in the "upper education level tier," if there is a such thing. Sad, but true. Can't wait til Grad and PHD status. lol I pray you all have a Happy Holiday season! I'm sure I will talk to you before then though. Comments? Questions? Please, don't be shy!

"Hypocrisy Exposed":You Should Have Known; Nothing is Free, Not Even Free Speech!

   Ok...Hold up...Stop da press for real this time! I have a feature story in the Elon University School Newspaper, but that's not what I want to talk about. There was also another article entitled "Hypocrisy Exposed," about a student writer for the Pendulum who admitted to underage drinking. That was just dumb! lol This student wanted to make a point that the university, police, and a nearby club "The TapHouse," all need to do more to prevent underage drinking. My thing is, she could have made that point without putting her business on front street. [That's a complete and total no-no in the hood; like I know anything about the hood. haha] Couldn't she have said that "a student" or several students" carry fake IDs to clubs and use them to drink? Everyone everywhere knows that that is the unfortunate truth, so why did she feel it necessary to admit herself to doing such? Now she is being faced with several charges by the Office of Student Conduct at Elon. Now the Pendulum is mad at the school for pressing charges. Their claim is that faculty has been promoting "Free speech," a lot lately, yet they are penalizing a writer for being honest. The school's claim is that "it would be a liability for the university not to judicially interfere when a student admits to engaging in illegal activities."
   If I have ever learned anything in my few years in the work world---THE BIG ENTITY/BUSINESS ALWAYS WINS! The place with the most $ invested, gets the say. ALWAYS! No ifs, ands, or buts about it. If you are publishing a book, your company will more often that not get the final say on marketing strategies (unless you are a famous writer). If you are a television show, the sponsors/owners get the final say in what goes on the air. If you attend college and you admit to doing something illegal on it's campus...they're gonna pursue your dumb bunny butt! lol In the work world you can get kicked out or fired over silly stuff like that. I especially can't do things like that as a Black, Female!? Uh huh, get outta here with that. People don't usually laugh at that joke, but it's true. It's all about perception and it's all about image. Elon is not going to risk being sued, in the event that this girl dies from alcohol poisoning, after she blatantly admitted drinking illegally. What would her parents think if they found out? What if the story was published in the Washington Post? As much as I hate to, I have to take the school's side on this issue and I can speak from personal experience on this one.
   And just as a hint, when folks say "We want Free Speech. Speak Your mind! Release your inhibitions!," they don't really, really mean it! This reminds me of O.J. Simpson. After he paid 33+ millions of dollars to get off on two murder charges, he had the nerve to write a book called "IF I DID IT." Really?! Thanks, O.J., now we KNOW YOU DID IT! If you don't remember anything else, please remember that "Freedom is not FREE! Everything comes with a price!" Especially if you are a Black female! haha. I propose that America stop faking and just become a Communist society and let the government dictate what we can and can't say; do and can't do. They've been dictating every one and every nation almost since the very beginning, just in stealthy, sly, shamefully sneaky ways--those crooks! The World Bank, IMF, The State Treasury, the GOP....all of demmss! [And before you get the wanting to challenge me, it was only a joke, but yet truth. Calm down.]
   Aside from all of this, what blows my mind is that the TapHouse club is directly, I mean just a few feet, behind a church! Now that's foul. I love to dance, but they can keep their confusion and their underage drinkers. I will just keep the dancing party twirling in my head or just stay on the church side. Let me know what you think of this scenario! Please Comment Below!

Strip Club: "The Uncomfortable Story": Nothing Exotic About It

   She enters into a dark, purple room lit by black lights. A thick cloud of smoke greeted her as she walked in and immediately caked onto her skin like soot. The stench of cigarettes and cheap beer overwhelmed the place. Straight ahead were three poles, all occupied with young lady dancers seeming to be no older than 20. Their faces--Blank. There were other girls occupying the floor, making the acquaintance of the few men that were there. Before she had arrived here, her stomach churned sitting in the car--just the thought. What would she do? What would she say? How naked would these women be exactly? Stepping out of the car feeling nauseous; it did not help to see four mysterious looking men, all with leather jackets, hanging out on the corner of the building. In the lobby was a young girl behind the counter with a gigantic rack (like your typical Hooters waitress). She prints out the receipt and on the top it says "Mini Gulf Club." "What a way to disguise your dirty doings," she thinks. Above there is a sign--THE RULES. "No touching!" stood out like a sour thumb. She and her company proceed...now [we] are back [where we started] in the dark, purple room.
    The bartender is the only sense of welcome allotted to the girls. She talks to the first time visitors and tells them "She doesn't mind her job. It pays good money." Later talking to the girl they paid in the lobby; she has a three year old son. Her boyfriend ran away to Europe when she got pregnant. She had to drop out of college, lives with momma (as she calls her), and is now working at this strip club to save money to go back to school. "It makes good money." The assistant manager (an ex-dancer) comes out and sees the visitor pull out a recording device. "NO!" She screams. "You need to talk with the manager!" So they proceed to a small room with a plastic chair and cheap table with a man behind it who looks like the club owners you see straight out of the movies--Slick back hair, earring, jeans, and a t-shirt underneath of a suit jacket. "Ladies, Ladies" he says smoothly. He reiterates that the girls cannot talk to the dancers. The girls proceed out. Our main character comes back to her dorm and sobs. Her name is Nicole Chadwick.
    A sophomore at Elon University majoring in Broadcast Journalism, originally from Dallas, Texas. She was given the assignment in her Broadcast News Writing class to go to "an uncomfortable place" and find a story. The experience made Nicole second guess her ability to be a journalist. She thinks aloud, "Can I really manage to successfully separate my emotions from stories like these? My personal life from my business life?" The experience was a saddening, yet humbling one. To be in a strip club and see young women her age (20) and possibly even younger giving their bodies away for the whole world to see. "Most of them don't have a choice and most of them don't have much education. They need money and this is the easiest and fastest way to get it," Nicole says. She sniffles and puts herself back in that pitiful memory for a moment and proclaims, "I am so blessed. That could be me. That could be me."

[This story is my re-making/interpretation of an interview I conducted with Nicole Chadwick. This is not for re-print or re-distribution without permission from the writer].

YOU BETA SANG CHILD!

    Hello lovelies! Let me start off by saying, I know it has been a while since we've talked. Bad case of writer's block; well, not so much. Last week was so hectic--research and synthesis papers were due. However last night...Last night guys was like a DREAM! We had our Gospel Choir Concert and boy oh boy I do not even know where to begin. I remember in my elementary school years, being tall and chubby and awkward...being teased all the time. When I gave speeches or had events at school no one was there to support me. Sometimes my grandmother would come, which meant a lot. Last night--ALL MY LOVED ONES WERE IN THE AUDIENCE SMILING AT ME! My dad, grandparents, my cousin Pastor McKoy, Tino, his hilarious roomate Alan, my entire hall, two of my guy friends Daniel and Chris, a church member and his wife, and my darling who did my photoshoot, Rachel! I was so overjoyed to have so much support! Anyways...we sang ya'll! lol President Lambert (president of the school) was in the front row with his wife and I saw him starring. I know he remembered me from the Sigma Phi Epsilon dinner (when I had on that royal blue dress that hung like a curtain on me, grandma said. haha. That means I was HOT ya'll! lol) when Tino won the "Well Balanced man scholarship. His face was in awe throughout the entire concert as if to say "So this is what SHE does." and "This is so amazing!" And it was! He could've gone to any other concert or event last night. I know that Twisted Measure (Another excellent singing group on campus who sings barefoot) where performing last night.
     The most exhilarating part of the whole night for me was my ad-lib solo to one of the last songs we sang called Manifest by T.D. Jakes. I BLEW! I have never sang like that in my life, in public, much less a solo! I wasn't me though. I think you know who I am going to accredit that to, but I will let you fill in the blank :) I remember the first true choir I sang in...it was called "The Children of the Gospel." It was a two week summer camp and they taught us techniques--correct posture, diaphragm singing, for sopranos (head singing--to reach high notes), how to read music--Everything! And we would sing every day, all day. I always wanted a solo, but the main guy would always turn me away. I was not ready yet. But after almost 7 years, I WAS READY!
     The spirit was in that place last night...people were getting saved and going to the alter for prayer. It was so genuine. So surreal! And the dream doesn't stop there guys...oh no! At the end--THE HUGS! Man I love hugs, but these were all love hugs. My gospel choir friends and I were hug jumping and screaming because we were so happy for each other. My hall mates showed so much love and support. I got to hug the drummer Julius, such a humble spirit and cutie pie. In the hall later I had three of my favorite mens surrounding me...Tino, Chris, and Daniel. lol They were praising me and of course my future husband Tino stepped in big chested and said "Yes! I want you to know that I am very proud of her!" haha. Isn't it every woman's dream to have three men in awe of you at once? Geesshhh I felt like Beyonce or somebody last night--well, I should say Michelle. She was the only one who ended up singing Gospel. eeeheemm. Later the fam and Tino and I, all went to IHOP. FUN! Two hours later a big group of choir members came (it had to be at least 13 of them if not more) and guess what? Pastor McKoy paid for their meal. I'm sure that wasn't a cheap bill. He looked at me and said "Just sowing a seed darling!" When we left he told them and their reaction was priceless! Some threw up their hands as to say "Thank you Jesus!" lol and others looked at me like "Is he joking?" I shook my head no as if to say, "This guy is for real--he's serious!" I want to do that kind of thing when I get to that stage. My last uplifting words for you...If you keep the faith in yourself and believe that you can do whatever you set your mind to, YOU CAN AND YOU WILL. Yes, it's as simple as that! For me, I will get there by serving the Most High! Things are happening to me that have only played out in my dreams! When they come true, it's even better than what you dreamed! Thank God! I have surpassed the stage of haters having the courage to talk me down, look me down, or try to stop me...nothing but mature adults are in my corner, loving and supporting. Really, that's all you need. And if the haters try..it's not happ'n. I have a POSSE now...a POSSE of the Most High King. Doesn't get any better than that!
"I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens ME!" Philippians 4:13 Love you guys! till next time!

IF I WERE A TEACHER: Current Craziness in American Classrooms

Ok--stop the press! I have been witnessing some very disturbing trends in the classroom that I feel are distorting and disorienting the teacher/student/learning environment setting.  I feel safe to say that the college professors are more lenient than the high school teachers I had were (AND NOT ALL; Im just making a general note of commonalities so don't trip--lol). Okay, so this thing about having laptops in class...It is not necessary. IF I WERE A TEACHER, I would make a NO TOLERANCE policy on laptops. "I do not want to see ANY LAPTOPS, unless I tell you we will use them for an in-class project. Don't even bother to bring them!" In class y'all, I sit right next to people who all they are doing is nothing but browsing on Facebook. Is stalking people's lives really that important, that you would tune out vital information that your teacher is spitting? And some students will say, "Well, oh, I take notes on the computer. It is so much easier. I have messy handwriting." My response is "Ain't nothing wrong with your hands! If you have two (one in fact), paper and a writing utensil, you do not need a computer." Beyond that, it is totally disrespectful to have a screen in front of your face, OBNOXIOUSLY ignoring your teacher. IF I WERE spending a majority of my time researching, making presentations, etc for a class I expect them to give me their time, undivided attention and respect. Otherwise I should just get paid to talk to a brick wall! On one wants to do that right?
#2--What is with this first name thing? My name is MS. ARRINGTON TO YOU OR PROFESSOR OR DOCTOR. I am not your peer." There is a student in one of my classes who calls our teacher by a nickname. A NICKNAME! Totally inappropriate. Honestly, I don't care what you say, calling an adult by their first name much less a nickname, eliminates the "authoritative figure/respect." And as a teacher you have earned your title, don't you want people and especially children to recognize you as such?
#3--What is with this lights out thing? Window shades shut, all lights out. And you wonder why students are falling asleep. This is also why I'm blind as a bat! IF I WERE A TEACHER lights would be on. In the real world, you will not be in a cold office with the lights out. I need backs straight, eyes and ears open, and lights on! lol
#4--What is with this constant late acceptance policy on papers/tests etc? We all got a syllabus. Everyone has the deadlines in their faces and at their fingertips. If they wanted to be lazy, then that is no one's fault but their own. When teachers accept an abundance of late work it rubs off on other students and students think that they can do whatever they want and turn things in whenever.
These are a few (unfortunately) of main trends I see evolving in the classroom, while students' brains are "devolving." Things like this make me want to become a teacher. I am not saying that I will be mean, but I will be a responsible adult and authoritative figure. Teachers' whole purpose is to make sure students LEARN! How can they learn running all over top of you and doing what they want? hhhhhmmmmmm. lol

Dat's Very Eassy Faarr You To Say!

    Well, let's see. For those of you who havent heard, Tino won the one single annual [out of forty applicant] "Well Balanced Man" scholarship from Sigma Phi Epsilon (a predominately White fraternity). I was very proud of him! I did not realize how prestigious the award was--now I have been crowned "First Lady Well Balanced." lol Also, I finally got the dream photo shoot experience I had been dreaming of for so long. One of my dear friends agreed to experiment with me and we had a blast--exotic makeup, exotic clothes, exotic places! I am going to post the photos on Facebook. I was just thinking in the process it would certainly be awesome to just "look pretty" and pose in front of a camera all day [for the rest of your life] and make loads of money while doing it. Doesn't that sound so fun and easy?! I know, I know, before you go all baazerk on me, I was only kidding.
    I have been feeling quite stressed lately. (In My Jamaican accent) Ja know, it is very very 'ard to be a "LEADer," because you'r always under fire. All da while, it is very very eeeassyyy for one to sit back, cross dere arms (yeh you), and point fingars, but it is another ting to surrender yourself up for the greater good of humanity only for the greater likelihood that your imperfections will be exposed--TO DE WORLD! Meh really need fi develop tough-fer skin." I want to not care what anyone thinks, feels, or says that may not be what I want to hear; but if I were to do dat, I would not be able to GROW! And great leaders are servants and also excellent listeners. I know you have heard "In order to lead, you must first learn how to follow," and that is soo true.
    How can one feel like they are being ignored, but watched brutally all at the same time? I just need to go to the gym. I think it's that time--and another thing--Why is it that when a woman gets emotional, it has to be that time of month? It is during that time, when I can think more clearer about all the things that are messed up in the world, and our culture, and society and of course in my little bubble! lol. I sound a hot mess. Before I go though, Remember, don't pick out the splinter in someone else's eye when you may have a log in yours. (Jamaican accent again) Be CAREful 'oh you Say tings ta peoPLE. It is great to say tings out of love and concern, but just WATCH IT! ONE LOVE--Yours Truly, Yazzie
Matthew 7:2 "For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged."
"Ya nuh hav fi comment--just stay quiet and judgmental lik yah always do."

My One Sentence Memoir

We did this in class and this is what I came up with:

"An unusual girl with unusual circumstances challenging the status quo, questioning modern ideals, and discovering oneself while making history."  

Still "Shuckin' n Jivin': Not All Our Fault

And the battle of "Race and Rights" continues to duke it out in my mind. It's so much to consume and process. Just watched CNN's "Black in America:Silicon Valley" screening Thursday night. It was a handful of Black entrepreneurs competing for investors to launch their online businesses. It was sad, interesting and eye-opening. they make us "battle each other," while the watch and laugh at us. We are still shucking and jiving. They did not began to work together until an Indian man came and pointed out to them that the problem with our race is that "We do not work together enough." I went to a session about the Criminal Justice System." I found out how prisons are deliberately built in small, remote, low-income, minority cities to make locals excited about jobs and continue to "enslave" the poor, minority people. There then forms a hierarchy in the prison system among black people. Now, no one else has to enforce slavery, they just sit back, watch us, and laugh. We're still shucking and jiving. Yesterday in my Caribbean History class I watched a documentary based on Jamaica Kincaid's "A Small Place," called "Life and Debt." it talked about how America gives these countries subsidies and trumps interest on them, so that the country ends up in even more debt than they did before the accepted the loan. I learned about "Free Zones" and how America puts strict laws on exported goods and capital to be spent on Health and Education." We are enslaved today by golden chains. Is there any escaping? What can we do? What can I do? What do you do when you've been "Bamboozled" [Spike Lee Film] ?

Lights, Camera, ACTION!

    Hosting the talk show last night was an absolute blast! I adore being on stage and having fun in front of the camera. You create your own personality, and discussion. I'm not conceited, it's just so much fun! The show will be posted online and Youtube next week so I will be sure to share it with you all.
    And speaking of cameras, my friend Rachel has agreed to be my photographer at my photo shoot--EXCITING! I can't get enough of cameras!
    Tonight I will be speaking on campus at an event entitled: "Locked Up:A Lost Generation." The professor hosting it is such a cool lady. She was a Juvenile Court Counselor for 15 years. I'm counting down till Saturday--I am slowly dying. My dad is cool peeps. He is hilarious and honest and sweet. He cooks and cleans, and sews, and hems clothes, sings; the guy can do more than me! I LOVE YOU DADDY! --Yaz

Registering, Texting, and Churching!

    Wwwwhhhheeeewwww! I dont think I have ever in my life experienced something as painful as I just did! Registering for classes as a freshman with no incoming credits is a mess! I changed my schedule at least 4 times; I am done with that now and glad to say that I am satisfied with my schedule. I literally got the LAST SLOT for two of my classes--I was sweating bullets. I am ready for a nap now! lol For Winter Term I am taking "Music and Propaganda." HHhmmm, this shall be interesting (and fun)! I love to do critical analysis on topics like this, if you couldn't already tell:) haha
    The good news is-my Simple Mobile sim card finally came so I can stop spending a ridiculous amount of money on my AT&T payasyougo plan (more like "payasyougobroke"). I will now be paying a steady $40/month for unlimited talking and texting anytime, any place! In this day and age (for a teenager/college student/business person) it is essential to have a cellphone. The cellphone is the epitome of a "Communication Revolution." This idea is open for critical analysis:)
    More updates: For Caribbean History I have to read Jamaica Kincaid's "A Small Place." My dear friend Rachel a cute, kind-hearted, Caucasian/Jewish girl came with me to church yesterday! It was her first time at a Black Baptist church and we had a blast! The choir was singing all the "Gospel Goodies" such as "Oh Happy Day," "I'm Going Up Yonder" and many, many others. We also had Communion. I explained to her the significance of the act of Communion and walked her through the entire service. As a sidenote, I love Black Southern churches, because when they get in the spirit they dance and do "the airplane" and "the chicken"! The drums, piano, and tambourine start playing and it's on! Up North we think we're too good to do the funky chicken in church! lol Anyways, on Sunday one of my close friends who sings soprano with me in Gospel Choir joined the church and decided to get Baptized and also my father got saved the same day (I wish I had been two places at the same time)!
    Please do not be offended when I say that I have truly seen some miracles happen to those around me and in my own life, especially recently. I once did not believe that God performs miracles anymore [like how he turned water into wine, walked on water, etc], but that is so not true. I think we may not see miraculous things like that because of lack of faith. For me it is a miracle to wake up--it is a miracle that the folks I love have changed for the better--it is a miracle that my Jewish friend loved me enough to come to church with me--it is a miracle that I got the last slot in one one, but two classes! My definition of miracle: A supernatural work, that we as humans cannot do/make on our own (or even explain). Do you believe in MIRACLES? It's okay if you don't. Tell me why.

All Equal Under Law: I Think Not!

Been Doing some research on famous murder cases for my English class synthesis. I looked at the Troy Davis Case, the Casey Anthony Case, the Lionel Tate case, and the O.J Simpson Case. Any of these sounds familiar? It is my belief that court cases (murder cases in particular) more often than not come to final verdicts that reflect the characteristics of the defendant. What do I mean by that? Essentially, gender, race, and socioeconomic status are unfortunately determining factors of your fate if you are convicted of a crime. This is very problematic because we are all supposed to be "Equal Under the Law" and judges are supposed to make rulings solely based on the facts and the law; however, this is far, far from the truth of what actually happens.
This was a very interesting research topic I chose and I can definitely do so much more with this. What do you think about my thesis and further research possibilities?

Daddy's Baby Girl

Hearing a man telling me I'm his "baby girl" sounds strange over the phone, yet sweet and calming. Today was another terribly interesting day! This time I will start with the semi-bad news. I got my math test back today, and unfortunately it was a "C"! Aaaahhhh. IF I HAD A DOLLAR FOR EVERY SINGLE TIME I GOT A "C" ON A MATH TEST I WOULD BE RICH. And that is not understatement my darling. I know that I am an "A" student, though I have never really been. I participate, I always do my homework, I go to office hours, and I even studied for 6 hours with buddies. Why do I keep seeing "B"obs and "C"ats! I need more "A"pples. lol in English I can produce "A"s like a factory line with my eyes closed, I can't hardly produce a B in math with my eyes wide open. Math is officially my Arch Nemesis!
Aside from that I had an excellent talk with my Caribbean History Professor today--that woman has so much brain power it makes no sense! She could probably take over the world if she wanted to! Please don't take this to literal :) She introduced me to another Black professor and he was fabulous too--they are too funny! I think Someone is leading in the path of being a African-American/History minor. I find this stuff so fascinating! Anyways, then I went to career services and saw a work of magic occur on my resume. There's only one guy in Career services and boy oh boy he's worth a million--Hollywood here I come! How come all this time I never knew to have a cover letter with my resume?
This is why you have to ask for everything, because folks dont just tell you stuff to be telling you! I fill like a big bag of "campus success secrets"! Folks running around asking me how to get a job as a tour guide...I am going to a PR meeting today to try and find innovative ways help promote Elon's TV Shows. Any ideas? I watched the movies "N-Secure" and "The Greatest Song," starring some of my favorite actors/actresses and they both made me cry. I truly feel like a sissy--I never cry on movies; that's when you know they're good. If you know anything about me, I am a Black movies Guru! I AM COOLEY HIGH, OKAY, OR THE BEST MAN? take your pick. lol College is now officially a rolling ball for me. I am a fat, cute little hamster getting a heck of a work out every day and it gets better and better. MY VITALS ARE OUT OF THIS WORLD! I thank each and every one of you for being in my life and having a desire to understand me and know me and share your own knowledge with me. There is so much to discover and be grateful for, no matter where you are in life. I leave you with this--"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7 #Living Testimony "I am a hamster in a rolling ball oh, and Daddy's baby girl! :) 

A New Day, Higher Heights!

My dad was released from prison today! He was put on a GreyHound bus. He should be in Wilson, NC now, or at least by dawn. I am so happy and ready--to "meet him" and get to know him. All the anxiety and worry I had before is now all gone. Some more great news, I worked behind the scenes of Etalk as a prompter--Elon's new tv talk show (sort of like the View) tonight. It was a lot of fun. I will get to be a host in the coming weeks; just have to be patient. I also sold my first three items on Ebay--this day has brought so much excitement. I got to know this really sweet girl from my Communications class. She is a junior, she plays tennis, and the best part is, she has a car! lol She is truly a sweetheart. I had been praying that God would send me a good friend.

Some sad and rather scary news. I experienced "Fraud" yesterday for the first time in my 18 tender years of life; not fun. Some false company had wiped out my entire Wachovia, or should I say Wells Fargo Account. I was so scared. I was charged $128 in addition to a bank overdraft fee of $35. I filled a claim and they found that the transaction was in fact unauthorized and the bank refunded my money. That is some scary stuff. Please be careful who you give your bank/credit card info to online. I know not to trust those online surveys anymore. I hope you have a great day. I love the freedom that Elon presents to students. Literally, I feel like I am a sitting under a Christmas tree. I am being handed all these free gifts in pretty wrapping that I can just go for! Elon gives you opportunities and let's you do as you please, as long as your good at what you do of course. Man, I can't wait to be a senior!

Back to happy news: have you heard of the new online tv series "The Mis-Adventures of Awkward Black Girl"? I am going to send in my resume and apply to be a summer intern. They film in LA--wouldn't that be just terrific?!

Convictions of Lyfe {sic}

It's so beautiful out today! The sun is just'a shinin'! Since it is such a beautiful day, I thought I would share some inspiring words. Last week in English class, the teacher asked us to share our "Convictions of Life." It's funny, you never really think about words of wisdom that your loved ones have generously passed on to you until you are in a moment when the phrase serves as encouragement. You know you've had one of those moments! It makes such a difference to put them on paper, because then you can put your beliefs in perspective. So without further ado, here are quotes that have carried me through life and/or just inspire me.

--"Success is a mindset; college will only get you half way there."
--"Your spouse should not complete you, but compliment you."
--"You can always do better than your best." --Grandma and Great Granddad
--"Every obstacle is an opportunity."
--"Surround yourself with who you want to be."
--"Feel the fear and do it anyway."
--"It's all about perspective." -My principal
and my absolute favorite...
"KEEP YOUR BOOKS OPEN AND YOUR LEGGS CLOSED." -Mommy R.I.P. 09/09/07

What are the inspirational quotes you live by?

California Dreamin'

I have been reading the bios of some famous and upcoming African American actors/actresses--Lamman Rucker and Denise Boutte in particular. These two are extremely humble, hard-workers, who are noticably spirit-led. I found out that Rucker as well as so many other of my favorite tv faces were born and/or raised in Washington, DC. I am so inspired! I must continue to work hard, if not harder to follow what HE has for me. I wish soo much to live my life to the fullest and get to meet and work with all of these great and handsome people. In certain settings, I felt like I had been deprived from meeting certain people and reaching higher heights--but I proclaim right now that no human can set any limitations on my life and it's potential! If they can do it, I can too! I love DREAMING BIG. The imagination is a powerful thing--it has gotten me all through my school career and tough times; I believe it will also take me to places I have never been. It's only a matter of time.

Drunkorexia: New College Disease

    It seems as though all the new mandatory prerequisite online alcohol classes and those high school pledges to abstain from sex, drugs and alcohol while in college, that we took do not seem to be curving underage alcohol consumption in college. In fact it is only increasing, along with sickening new trends such as starving oneself in order to binge drink. This is a disease that has been labeled "Drunkorexia." A student will literally stop eating food or cut back so that they won't gain weight from alcohol calories. They may also purge themselves after consuming large amounts of alcohol. The habit itself is not new, but the name fairly is. This trend has been most observed among female college students. Hearing this saddens me. It makes me think 1)why would people do all of this to themselves just to drink? and 2) why do 18-year-old college girls want to drink anyway?
    I think it is safe to say that everyone, no matter what age is looking for excitement in their lives--whatever makes them happy! It could be a number of things from cardio aerobics, pottery, teaching, sky-diving, writing, shopping (one of my weaknesses)...ANYTHING! We all want to relieve stress and live life to the fullest, but, yes here comes the "but," there needs to be a balance in everything we do. Too much of anything can be bad. Personally, I don't drink because for me it is not necessary--I can laugh, have fun, and relax without a substance controlling my body/mind. I also will probably never be able to give up food. lol
    I am actually not going to throw my opinion out there full blast, because my aim is not to offend anyone. I just want you to think about what you do, the means in what you do it, and will it be healthy for you in the long run? When your body does not consume food for a long time, it begins to feed on itself. Once a man who was riding on his bike died from consuming too much water. Being under the influence may give a temporary buzz or "loosen you up," but it can also have the opposite affect and make you do things you wouldn't normally do that you could regret FOR LIFE. Please love yourself enough to make health decisions and adopt healthy habits. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND UNIQUE! I love me--all 270 pounds of me and I don't need a drink or a cigarette to make me happy and stress-free. No one will ever be 100% stress free. All I need is a good laugh and lots n lots of love vibes!

Why Slavery? Caribbean History at a Glance

Wow! I cannot begin to tell you how mind-blowing Caribbean History class was yesterday. First we looked at the differences/similarities between indentured servitude and slavery. Then we looked at the 18th and 19th century Plantation and what this new era meant for slaves. By this time 90% of the Caribbean population was either African or African-descended. Piracy has come to an end. Broke Europeans said "Forget it!" It was no longer worth sailing to "The White Man's Grave," only to find that there was little to no opportunity for you to do much of anything, unless you already owned land and some slaves. There is a monoculture forming particularly in Jamaica around the Sugar Plantation; the most rigorously labor-intensive plantation among them all--cotton, rice, and coffee did not nearly compare. You see, sugar was a year round crop and it had to be boiled within hours after being cut in order to prevent it from spoiling. Slaves on these plantations worked 18-24 hour shifts. Women usually lasted 15 years in the field, when men would only usually last 13. Crazy right?!

I learned yesterday that slavery was not so much about "exerting power" over the inferior, but it was all about work! Work, work, work! "Squeezing every little last drop of work out of a slave, from the time they were toddlers till old age," my teacher said. I guess what they say is true--TIME IS MONEY" lol. Women not only had their plantation duties, but also domestic duties--they had to plant their own food, feed their children, reproduce, oh my. And we think we have it hard today with instant oats, hot pockets, and Hungry Man Dinners! Anyways, I learned how slaves would die from snake bits, falling into the sugar boiling pit, and getting caught in the grinders. There was a slave designated to chop off someone's arm, if it got stuck or snagged in a grinder. What kind of craziness is this? There was a whole slave hierarchy--Skilled Artisans, Head Domestics/1st gang drivers/healers, domestic females, and Field hands. This immediately made me think of how there still somewhat exists a "hierarchy in modern-day Black society," and society as a whole. Dark-skinned Blacks are still discriminated on and light-skinned or red-boned Blacks are considered to have better lives, or have it easier in the work world. I mean, we know this is not completely true, but there are still some who live in this dark mentality. I thought about the violence and division that thrives within the Black culture.
In class I saw paintings of slave plantation life/work by Steele Burden that I do not recall ever seeing in my life. You should check some of his work out. What blows me, as always, is the fact that I was never taught any of this! Tino told me he didn't even learn this stuff when he was growing up in Montego Bay, Jamaica. Censorship is a "you know what." I now understand the pricelessness of a college education, regardless of the "price tag." And I understand the saying that says, "If you want to hide something from a Black man, put it in a book." Sad, but true.
#somuchfoodforthought --think about that. Tell me if you have had any classroom experiences like this, or "slavery revelations." ???? All throughout my "younger years" lol, we mainly focused on cotton plantations in North America. That's all you ever read or heard about--cotton, cotton, cotton. Not to discredit that information at all, but sugar plantations were much more gruesome. Can you believe I have never watched "Roots?" I think it's time to do so.

Great Monday, Good Grades

I got a 100/100 on my Communications final and a 95/100 for my Rhetorical Analysis paper for College Writing! This is crazy, amazing! I hope to see my Caribbean History final grade tomorrow.
Today has been so exciting! As you can tell by all my exclamation marks. I talked with one of my favorite mentors the other day. We are moving forward on getting out the ScholarCHIPS (Children of Incarcerated Parents) application. I am so thankful for people who stay behind me and push me to be "better than my best."
I decided to finally open my mouth today and talk to some folks. I find that students on this campus are so smart--but most just need a little push to talk and once they get the talking, they don't stop, and you learn so much--it's great! I shared a piece of my poetry in my English class--that was fun. I haven't read my poetry to an audience in so long. I need to go to an open mic night on campus asap!
I emailed the TV station manager on campus to schedule a meeting--so we shall see how this plays out. I am not used to being this idle. In college you seriously have to figure out how to manage and maximize all this free time you get; but I find it rather easy. Everyone is extremely willing to help you make the most of your college experience. I hope that your Monday is going as beautiful as mine is! If not, all it takes is sparking a little conversation. Peace my lovelies.
 PS: I give my first campus tour today. I am nervous. Then gym, then math tutoring.

Heavy Heart, Congested Mind

So much on my mind. My mind is terribly heavy. I definitely need more people surrounding me "WHO SPEAK LIFE"--positive things. It is hard being a Freshman--you don't really know anyone--you may think you do, but you really don't. Or you want to know someone, but they don't want to let you. I have people (outside of college) in my life who will critique and give constructive feedback, which is necessary and important, but one also needs words of love and encouragement.

I have been thinking a lot-- a whole lot, about getting my own tv show/time slot on the Elon Student Broadcasting Station. I want to do it, but I need a plan and supportive folks in my corner. What better way than to prepare myself for the world of TV and broadcast journalism? Then I have to ask myself, well is this where God is calling me? It's my passion. I so badly want to be my own boss.
My new quote will be--"I am the master of my fate, the captain of my soul." Invictus

Well, one thing that was exciting--I got to see my first Greek Step Show--IT WAS AMAZING! It felt like I was @ Howard University. This is Homecoming Weekend. However, I am going to stay in the room and catch up on sleep, and work (so I can stay ahead in my classes)-_- Gospel Choir sings tomorrow for Homecoming. I LOVE ME SOME GOSPEL SINGING--will heal any hurts/frustrations you have. Til next time! Love Yaz

Craziness on Campus

Today, some man on campus was soliciting women (female college students) for sex. Prior a guy was "MIA" and earlier in the year, there were racial slurs being shouted. Drunk people falling on concrete. Geesshh! There are random, crazy things that have been happening on campus (as Im sure happen on any college campus) --I realize that God IS ALWAYS PROTECTING ME, even when I am not fully aware. I never (thank goodness) have run into crazy people like this, and by God's grace alone, I wont.

Fall Break--Short but Sweet

Fall Break was well worth the seven hour train ride. Sunday night, after an enjoyable morning @ my home chruch-St. John United Baptist, I had dinner with my mentor Aaron Jenkins and Judge Ellen Huvelle last night. She is currently presiding over the case of At&T trying to merge with yet another mobile company. [Our country's economic status has no room for monopolization right now, in my opinion.] Monday, I did a little school shopping at Target in Columbia Heights, went to the nail shop, and was greeted by a soul food dinner when I arrived home (Tino and I watched Spider Man 3). Tomorrow my train leaves at 10:55am. I am not excited to get back to the world of tutoring and 8-page papers, but a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do, right?! On the train I will read Jamaica Kincaid's "A Small Place"--required reading for Caribbean Hostory class.

PS: Judge Huvelle's husband is a partner @ Covington & Burling (a prestigious law firm in DC). It would be a blessing to get a job there this summer. That way I can perhaps discover a way to merge my interests in law and communications. On the road again..., wish me luck. Fare well DC!

PS2: My dad was supposed to get out today. I cannot reach my folks in NC. Perhaps they are out celebrating?

Nancy Pelosi Released a Letter-This is Serious

The beautiful, bold, yet soft-spoken House Democratice Leader, Nancy Pelosi, just relesed a letter via Emily's List saying that "Republicans are waging a War on Women." However, lately it seems as though they have been waging war on loddi dotti and everybody! lol Pelosi says, "The are making reckless efforts to repeal health insurance reform, and end Medicare." WHAT?

The republican wives must be seriously faltering in their womanly duties. lol What did women ever do to them? Our country's going down in flames!

http://emilyslist.org/blog Emily's List: Connecting Women and Electing Women To Make Progressive Change. Check it out.

PS: I would love to see Sister Souljah in politics! If these men think they are mad now--if they met her...

Media Just Needs to Stop Subliminally Exploiting BLACK (people)

One of my friends on Facebook, just made a great point! The Urban Outfitters company is selling these shirts that say "BROKE IS THE NEW BLACK" and of course the shirts are BLACK. hhhuuummm Do you think this is a mere coincidence? I think not. The shirts are supposed to symbolize that we are in a recession. Why does being broke have to be associated with the color "BLACK," when African Americans are also? I'm interested to hear what you think.

Private, Elite Culture Shock

I am doing wonderful, but tired. Ready for Fall Break. I love Elon. Some days are FANTASTIC, while other days are a complete and total drag. I have to get used to an ENTIRE CLASS sitting in a dark classroom with their Macs in front of them. What happened to the days when you respected your elders, especially your teachers and gave them your undivided attention? Because students have their computers in front of them, they do not talk or try to get to know people and the room is dead silent. I miss Ruth Abraham. I have yet to find another close friend like her, but I am in no rush--I have to make sure I have the right one. 

I do not mean to make it seem as though I do not like college, but it is so different and so new. The resources are awesome--I utilize the Tutoring Center, Writing Center, and the gym all of the time, but because there are so many resources that so many of these kids have always had, there is a huge disconnect and a culture shock for me. I was glad to get away from DC, however, I come to a private, elite school only to be bombarded with a different kind of ignorance. And I know that this is something that will happen at any private, elite college I go to. Its just the life style, but the next question I would have to ask myself is, would I like a HBCU better? The answer is probably, no. The staff are as kind as they can be though. Perhaps it's just me.  

Aside from all of that, I just got a job as a tour guide! I am very excited about that. I am going through training now.

Beyonce "CopyCat" Controversy

WOW! There is a lot more to this Beyonce "CopyCat" Controversy than I thought! Apparently, Single Ladies, and Countdown [choreography] were not the only videos/performances in which Beyonce stole other artists' routines. Her song "If I Were A Boy," was originally sung by a 18 year old girl-BC Jean. This is crazy. The lives of the rich and famous are not always what they seem.

Presidential Election, Pres Obama's Got It In the Bag

I just got finished reading, "Are Republican presidential hopefuls having too may debates," on Yahoo News. It is hilarious. See what a lot of people do not know is that GOD is on President Obama's side. There are like 10 Republican presidential candidates--and they are all on their seventh debate already! Granted, some will drop out, but I dare to say that Obama's got it in the bag! Since he won in 2008, EVERYONE thinks they can run and win. He was one of those "one in a millions(s)!"

OccupyWallStreet

Why should WE THE PEOPLE continue to suffer in silence and suffer because we are silent? It makes no sense that jobs are constantly declining, our justice system is executing who ever they feel like, and benefits keep getting cut from Welfare and Disability--all while the "1%" just keep getting richer. Dirty wealth. What has America come to? Join your local OccupyWallStreet group on Facebook and check out their website.

Teen Pregnancy and Old Age

   Good morning Lovelies! There are two things that have constantly been dwindling in my mind. There are four teenage mothers I know who all LOVE their children so much. They post pictures all the time and post comments on FB like, "I love my (fill in the blank with a cutiepie nickname)." My question is why does our society (mainly younger generations) embrace and promote sex in music, videos, etc and yet shun someone who GOT WHAT YOU GET AS A RESULT OF SEX? Hhhhuuuummm.
    Secondly, why are older folks from their 30s on, so embarrassed about telling their age? In my opinion you should be proud of the experiences you've had in life, all the hell men and women have put you through, all the places you have been. I have two beautiful grandmothers who I love and admire sooooo much--and I am glad they are not in their 20s. When I get 60+ years old--You won't be able to tell me a thang! I will strut like a 21 years old Victoria Secret model (with some clothes on that is) and tell everyone I know and don't know. If I hear another "older somebody" say..."Well, I won't say that, because that will tell my age..."
What do you think? I know it's a bit much for an early morning thought process, but I am what they call a "Morning Person." :)

Here We Go Again

Wwwhhheeewww! This is starting to feel just like high school all over again! At first it was a nice stroll in the park-lots of free time, nap time, and Tino time :) Now there is no time to sit down for a cup of coffee (I don't even drink)--homework, meetings, homework, singing, bible study; laundry and grocery store once a week--phone bills! It's only been 6 weeks. I am grateful, however, that Spring Break is next week. My Dad gets out on parole next week to Wilson, NC. Pray for me yall, I am nervous.

And who said you have no adult responsibilities in college? Huh, what were they doing? lol

Black Baptist

And she says to me, "Do you really need two bible studies, Gospel choir, and church on Sunday?" I laugh to myself and think "Why YES! I'm a Black Baptist!"

Steve Jobs

So Steve Jobs has made his mark--He will be in the history books. Around campus, people are crying and posting statuses saying things such as "I'm mourning." Sometimes I think we mourn more over celebrities than we do over our own family members. So my question is, WHAT WILL YOU DO TO MAKE YOUR MARK AND PUT YOUR NAME IN THE HISTORY BOOKS?